Me, Po Yi n Ee-lynn...i love my coat...haha!!!

A group taken at TGIF...

Me n the birthday girl, Po Yi...on March 16th

This top looks so girly...

I love the colour of this top...

Nice pretty Tee...

This bag is so pretty...i think i wanna get it!!!

On this quiet night...something is haunting me again...and i am beginning to lose control of myself once more...it is not becoz of You...but it is something that has been always causing me to be so down through these years...putting me into so much depression...so much tears...can i ever overcome this weaknesses of mine...or will i end up doing something stupid...will someone ever understand how i am feeling inside? why does this weaknesses of mine cause me so much pain and strip me off my confidence...will i ever heal from it?

Me n You... A Birthday kiss on my cheeks...

Post Birthday Lunch with Hari at Two Fat Ladies...

On 11th March...

This post is to give a wee update for everyone on my birthday celebrations k...been so busy the past week that i couldnt find time to blog...Well last saturday, a surprise birthday party was thrown for me by my loved ones...it was indeed a truly memorable one...one which i will always remember...it was held at kenneth's place...and there were about thirty people who turned up for it...i was so touched by the love of everyone who were present that day...especially the efforts of Sarah darling (Girl, you've really touched me deeply with your efforts...it's more than words that i can express my thanks to you...i love you!)...there was a powerpoint presentation of me and my past and how i had grew ever since my very first days in Glasgow...though there were very funny video clips of me in it... like me jumping around like a monkey in my room...i was really impressed by it...and i could see how much efforts was used to plan this party for me...heard from G that you all have been planning it like a month ago...thanks k...plus the cake that Sarah darling and Alfred baked for me...very sweet of you all...and thanks for the presents everyone...and the food too...and not forgetting all the birthday greetings from all of you people...especially the people in glasgow...indeed it is a place full of nice people...people who are there to listen and care...i love all of you...Lastly, i heart everyone in 208 k...

Just wanna thank everyone of you for the birthday greetings k...i luv you all...i am truly touched by the messages from everyone...i feel so loved...

Juls, thanks for that birthday greetings...wanna you to know that you will always have that friend in me too...Without you, my life in concord won't be so much happier...

Sometimes i wonder why life is so full of ups and downs...for a moment i was feeling so happy and the next moment i am feeling so down...i was talking to mummy just now... being the usual spoilt little girl of hers...i was telling her about that pretty little time piece that i wanted... and the next moment when i heard her saying about daddy's car has got an accident...i felt completely out of my mind...i begin to come back to reality again...realising that there's so much more important things in life that i got to worry about than all my material wants...all the things i want is nothing compared to my loved ones...they are the ones whom i truly love and the ones who will stand by me in times of need...many thoughts start to run through my mind...reflecting on the lifestyle i have been leading...maybe it's time for me to change...i should try to spend more time with my family...coz it's been so long that i have been away from home...it has been a good 3 years in UK for me without having much quality time spent with mummy and daddy...i am missing them now...

My dental mates at my party...John n Rohin...

Me cutting my birthday cake...

The Girls Company...I love it...

Me n Poyi...

Me, Valerie n Chris...

alfred n me... pretty in pink!!!

Gordon n Me...he got a Ham Sup Lo look here...haha...

Happy 21st Birthday...

Me n Sue cha cha hugging a balloon...

My dental mates who came for my surprise 21st birthday party yesterday...

A pic of me, Gordon n Sarah at my surprise birthday party!!!

i received a little parcel this morning...opened it up and saw it was a birthday gift from You. I wanna say thank you for your card k... thanks for writing me that testimonial...yup it did make me tear when i read it...memories of our past did flash back...thank you for standing by me this past 6 years...i pray that may God continue his work in your life...and may you continue to trust in him as through him all things are possible...

I found this photo from Joyce's blog...so preeeeettttyy!!! I love you all... and i miss my becky...haha...

im still feeling so damn sick!!!

argggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh:(:(

i can't get back to sleep coz my throat is still hurting like mad

okay nuff of whining
i shall just pop the medicine and pray that i will get better
feel like calling mummy now and telling her how much pain i am in
but i think i shall not make her worry first
hopefully i will get better later today

Don't know what's wrong with me lately...my health has been so bad...keep on falling ill...been on many courses of antibiotics ever since i returned to Glasgow...and now i am down with fever and throat infection...felt so horrible the whole of today...had to give lectures a miss...really hope i didnt miss out on anything important man...been resting in bed the whole of today...with my body temperature fluctuating every so often...for a moment i was feeling so cold and for the next moment i was feeling so hot...i really hate the feeling of falling ill...it puts me in so much pain...and sometimes i really lose faith in living and simply wish that i could die so that the pain i am going through will come to an end...even this evening, i suddenly woke up with my temperature running...feeling so dizzy and i thought i had rather die...the will in me to live these days is weak...maybe becoz of what has been going on in my life lately...i wished mummy was here now to look after me man...i need her TLC...

Almost everyone in 208...except for Lee Loo...I miss every single one of you...

I am just getting so sick of life lately...ever since You came over to Glasgow...my life has changed completely...i can't even recognise myself anymore...the happiness in me has gone...i am more skeptical about things now...seeing and learning how people around you can let you down...i have learnt not to hope but to just let it be...not to expect anything from anyone...coz they are sure bound to disappoint you...i just need to get away from everyone...solitude is the best solution for me right now...the more i try, the harder i fall...i was too dependent on You and now when i choose to leave, i can't seem to lead my own life caused i always thought i can't live without You. But maybe i was wrong as I haven't given myself a chance to prove myself wrong. Maybe it's time for me to spare a thought for others and not make them worry for me anymore...especially for the people who really love me so much...

Me, Ambika n Sarah darling in Alfred's room...

One lonely silhouette against the grey hard pavement casted by the peaceful moon.
Long and dark it overcame it's master creeping up his complex trail of thoughts.
Never was there true love, never was there trust.
Yet lies were in abundance.
Still holding to faith,all except one promise broken.
Now even love had scumbled to the darkness of this night,hopes diminishes silently.
All has ended for her as she embraces the night's serenity,existing in tranquility.

Memories that i will always hold on to...i miss you all...