went for spa retreat today...first time experiencing a full body massage...it was really relaxing...well, too many things have happened...and now i have made up my mind to return your life in your hands...i don't wanna think about it anymore...i wanna leave everything aside and move on with my life...coz thinking too much just make me tears...i am truly tired of crying...you will never know how much it takes to care...now i realised to love someone is just so hard...

my day is just so screwed...everything seems to be going wrong...tears just rolled down my cheeks again...why is this happening...i am lost in my world...now i feel helpless...not knowing what my future is gonna be like...all this while i have been there standing by you...hoping that you won't repeat that mistake of mine...i love you so much that i just wanted the best for you...i wanna cry as i think of you...i wished that things did not had started...now i am hurt and i find it hard to pick myself up...sometimes i find it so hard not to care...but maybe i just don't know how to express it well...how can i erase those memories of you...tell me how much do i mean to you...the efforts i put in...just seem to have gone to waste...i am so lost for words now...emotions are just running through me...i don't know how to face the world now...i am so scare...why is this happening...

you were once my pillar of strength, but now you are gone...a chapter of my life has ended...tears are just flowing everywhere...tell me how can i forget about you...how can i live without you...lord pick me up, help me to face the world again...i am just so weak and shattered inside.

this is my last week of the easter hols...and i am not in any blogging mood...tata