please cheer me up!!!

speak the truth to me...take the weight off my heart...please i begged of you...i don't want to be locked up anymore...let me out of this place...i rather know the honest truth from you then me living in this world of agony...as someone told me, "tear off the band aid soon so that i can recover faster"...i would rather me feeling hurt now then you dragging it on...it will just be going no where...

Come Home Soon

It's been two days and I'm missin' you already
Never really thought you could mean
So much in such a little time

Think about the nights when I'm lyin' in your bed
With my chest resting your head
Now that you're gone I'm here to stay

I think I'm fallin' down
Down down down
With a bad case of love
Love love love
I think I'm falling for you
You you you
I think, I'm falling in love

When you come back all I wanna do is hold you
Have a blast even though there's nothing to do
Hold you close and look you in the eyes

So just come back and I'll tell you how I feel
Never knew how easy you could steal
My heart I miss you come home soon

I think I'm fallin' down
Down down down
With a bad case of love
Love love love
I think I'm falling for you
You you you
I think, I'm falling in love

I think, I'm fallin' in love
I think, I'm fallin' in love

Cause I know that you won't be home when I call you
You're in England now, I hope that you'll be home soon
Cause I know that you won't be there when I call you, now

I think I'm fallin' down
Down down down With a bad case of love
Love love love
I think I'm falling for you
You you you
I think, I'm falling in love

I think, I'm fallin' in love
I think, I'm fallin' in love

teddy n me!

cashy!

i am feeling so lost again...my emotions are stirring up inside me...i just wonder why i find it so hard to let you go...something is telling me to leave coz you will be breaking my heart once again...i am getting so tired with everything...

before my night out!

i can't sleep...so i am up blogging...the past few days have been very busy for me...been meeting up with friends, going for doctor's appointments and doing my uni application things...well, it was a busy week...went to the podiatrist today as i had got a very painful corn on my feet...then later on went shopping with mummy and bro...bought some kitchen ware for the UK...so happy...mummy is gonna buy me a new pair of diamond earrings...it's really pretty...simple yet nice...

okay, many thoughts have been cluttering my mind the past few days...been thinking of my past...well, i have finally realised why i am never happy and contented...god's been good to me...he gave me everything i want...but i am never satisfied and always ask for more...sigh! this is greed as what dad says...

talking about relationships...my past have been a drama...there have been many things that happened...maybe no one knows...coz i never really like talking about it...now that i am old enough...i think i had enough of those adventures and just wanna settle down...there comes a time where i just long for a tranquil life...where there are no more roller coaster rides...will this day come soon...i don't know...i am too tired to think about it now...sleepy...yawn!

Urgh! i am falling sick...getting a headache...the uni things are driving me mad...have been busy on it for days...never knew doing such things can be so draining...i wanna get done with it soon...it's so tiring...i seriously need a break!

My little brother!

Yao Zhong n Me on the bus!

Hui yan n Me!

sigh! sometimes i just feel lost...there are times where i just wonder to myself do i mean anything to you? can't you just tell me what is going on...there are times where i just feel like a fool...doing things for you...worrying for you...but you never seem to allay my fears...even just a simple message would make a difference...have you tried? when i am down...were you there to listen to me? it's not becoz i have never trusted you...neither is it becoz i never wanna open up...but it's you whom never managed to give me a sense of security that i could rely on you...what have i done wrong that you got to be so cold towards me? you could go the distance for all your other friends...but have you really think of the people who have cared for you during your weakest days...maybe it's time for me to leave...i will try to erase all the memories we had...i will leave right now...