Sigh...i am feeling lousy again after pros clinics...i wish i could speak my heart...but but but...i dont think i can...coz my words may cut someone's heart like a sharp knife...seriously, i wish to be back home...coz i know everything will be bliss for me...i can get everything i want...

Someone spoke to me today...something that really warms my heart so much and brings back that glow in me...You're beautiful, it's true...Your determination, your gentle heart, your radiant smile, your fine fairness are all so lovely...don't give up...you will get there one day...you will have a man who truly loves you and treasures you...keep on smiling...you have a beautiful future ahead...

I am feeling sad once more...blogging from the SL on a lonely valentine's night...argued with my boyfriend over the phone again...what i wish for now is someone who could really love me properly...i feel so broken and my heart is trembling...i need a hug...i need something to really cheer me up...to be honest, i am just not too happy with him and i feel like tearing the card into pieces...coz those words in the card doesnt carry any weight at all...it hurts so much...i wish for a guy to romance me...to love me...to give me those words of assurance...to treat me like a precious jewel...

What another lousy day becoz of talking to you over the phone...i got my whole night ruined...i can't get any work done...I am so fustrated with you!!!

I wanna be like a Labrador puppy on drugs...
I love happiness and love and joy, absolutely...
I want that love and laughter in my life...
I love surprises...
I want to be thoughtful, gracious and sharing...
I want to be that happy girl again...

I am not feeling too good...things are not going my way...or is it a sign that we are not mean to be...maybe...possibly...but what can i do for now...i just have to accept it...meanwhile i will just study hard and hope for a better future ahead...

All i can say is i am not too happy with my boyfriend...

I am feeling so weak and frail right now...so lost with what to do...my heart is unable to withstand such blows any longer...i seem to have lost that ability to love...my heart is numb...what i need now is rest...and to regain that confidence that i used to have...all i want now is happiness...and erase those scars that i have...

Would it set me free?
If I dared to let you see?
The truth behind the person,
that you imagine me to be?

Would my arms be open?
Or would i walk away?
Would my love for you,
be enough to make me stay?

It's been some time since i last blogged...just came back from a movie, the pursuit of happyness...it's quite an inspirational film i would say...Anyway, a wee update of myself...school has been so busy for me...the workload in dentistry is getting heavier...well, i find it hard to balance school work together with practical skills...i have finally finished a term of cavity preparation and i would say i am getting better at them but that's becoz i really put in loads of effort to go for extra practice sessions and spending lesser time in bed...to be honest, it has been a really tough time for me...tears were shed while trying to overcome those hurdles before me...not forgetting that i have to hang onto my roller coaster relationship at the same time...now i just wish to be home...to be amongst my group of close friends and family...coz i really need that love...i am really tired...