I am starting to count my blessings...I had a really great time this christmas as it was spent with all my close friends and love ones...I really do appreciate everyone of them and really do thank God for it...I remembered how i used to think that quantity matters more that quality...i always thought that having more friends is good...but i am wrong...there were some things that happened to me recently that made me realised that having quality friends is something that is more valuable...True friends stand by you...And they will always be by your side...They will be there in times of need, to wipe away those tears or to share in those happiness...So despite me having lesser friends than others, i am still contented as I have got my bunch of true friends which i would say are hard to come by these days...They are like precious jewels to me...
It seems so long ago that i last felt the love from the people around me. I have been going to bed each night wondering to myself how long more will i have to go through all these. There are nights that i go to bed tearful and feeling so much agitation. Why can't i feel the love and support from my love ones. Do i have a place in their hearts? I have been putting on a tough front to people around me. There are days where i feel that i can't take it any longer. Sometimes i wish for my parents to understand me and be that pillar of strength for me but it just seems so hard for them to understand my pain. I can only seek comfort in God, knowing that he is always there for me and he will never leave me nor forsake me. I have been praying that one day i will find that love which i have been looking for for so long.
I have been going through tough times lately...i feel so hurt and broken inside thinking about us...i thought i have found the right one to share my life with...i thought we could make it somehow and we could have a beautiful ending together...i was true to you every single moment...i gave my all...and i took you seriously...there was never once i was playing with your feelings...but things are falling apart becoz of our differences...our goals...how am i gonna heal from this?
