I pondered upon some things that were said to me lately...
I wondered to myself why did you not hold onto my heart...
And make me yours...
But you let the chance to slip away
Now that everything has gone...
You tried to pull me back...
Broken hearts...
Tears shed...
How can things ever be the same again...

i turn out the lights but i cant fall asleep. and then i realise, perhaps, that what i am feeling is loneliness.sometimes i think of the past 21years of my existence and then i feel so small, like as if the world is closing in on me, inch by inch, until i am trapped in a room where i find it difficult to breathe. and then i get upset. upset with the way things are, and i wish as hard as i can that someday, somewhere, things will get better. i cannot oscillate like that, between moments of euphoria and vast oceans of sadness. i have to leave this place behind, somehow, and i wish that i knew where the door is, the one that would take me away to someplace new.and then, for once perhaps, maybe i will be happy afterall.

all i need is a good disguise

one where nobody can recognise that i'm feeling so small

I am feeling so weak...
I am feeling emptiness and i just cant explain why...
Sometimes i wonder is this the place where i am meant to be...

I am suffering from withdrawal symptoms...

I feel so lost ever since you left that door
I find myself limping through this whole journey
The road ahead seems so tough
I dont know how am i ever gonna pull it through...

I look up
as a tear rolls slowly
down my cheek
I think about better days
and wonder if I'll feel that way again
You spoke to me
with words i wish i will never hear
Hoping to understand
why you've said those things you did
I wonder for a moment
if this is all a dream

Love always changes over time. And so does the pain love so often brings us.