I'm here just like I said
Though its breaking every rule I've ever made
My racing heart is just the same
Why make it strong to break it once again?
And I'd love to say I do
Give everything to you
But I can never now be true
So I say...

I think I'd better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now

I'm here so please explain
Why you're opening up a healing wound again
I'm a little more careful
Perhaps it shows
But if I lose the highs, at least I'm spared the lows

Now I tremble in your arms
What could be the harm
To feel my spirit calm
So I say..

I think I'd better leave right now
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now
Feeling weaker and weaker
Somebody better show me how
Before I fall any deeper
I think I'd better leave right now

I wouldn't know how to say
How good it feels seeing you today
I see you've got your smile back
Like you say your right on track
But you may never know why
Once bitten twice is shy
If I'm proud perhaps I should explain
I couldn't bear to lose you again

Quote of the day

"The bond of two people's love cannot be broken.
Bend it...Twist it...
Do what you will with it...

If it is true love,
then the sun will RISE another day."

Cody Heller

Courtesy of Shirley...

So many things have been going through my mind lately...it has been a tough time...my first ever heart break...it was painful indeed...never did i ever realise that you will leave me...but now i have come to terms with it...learning how to enjoy the life of singlehood...and yes, it's different but it's so much more carefree...and i am just gonna use this time to do all those things that i didnt manage to do in the past...first and foremost is to start gyming...i need to lose weight..i am fat, fat, fat...go for ballet lessons if i have the time...and after my exams i wanna tour around Europe...i wanna go Greece, Milan, Valencia, Venice...then back to Singapore to spend time with my loved ones...Teddy, sze man and the rest of 208...and maybe make a trip to china too... sounds exciting! I hope it works...

15th March 2007

Why am i still feeling so lousy...why is love such a painful thing...i am still bleeding inside...when will i ever recover?

Currently sitting in the dental library typing out some notes...it's been a tough week for me...the excruciating pain from my break up has drained me so much...what worse is that my whole week has been going so wrong...i got scolded so many times in prosthetic clinic, i guess my tutor was in a super bad mood la and he got it on me...PMSing i would say...And what i did was to keep my cool and continued to speak to him in a gentle well-mannered way...it's having to maintain good relationships with my tutors or else i will be so screwed when it comes to my exams...sigh sigh...it's called talking skills...bleah!!!

Anyway, i got a suprised birthday celebration from Thushala yesterday...Very very sweet...she brought me to thai lemon grass for dinner...after finishing our meal, i went to the restroom and when i came out the lights was dimmed and people were singing happy birthday song to me...Awww!!! i am so touched...yeah..i am still loved!!! Thank you so much Thushala...You made my day yesterday...

A chapter of my life...

I came across something tonight...not intentional...but it hurts...it's giving me second thoughts...is it worth it afterall?

Sometimes i feel like a fool...i wonder to myself why did i even took that step to even love when i know eventually i would be hurt...i can feel that things are slowly fading away but i still pretend to be fine...why do i have to keep on deceiving myself...i listened to the stories of people and i know i really do miss my past...where there was really true love...To be honest, a part of me has died...i am beginning to lose hope in relationships...will i ever find a man who truly loves me? I shall not hope anymore but to just find happiness in myself and God...