I am f***ing pissed off with my landlord!!!
And i can't get hold of someone
Argh...everything is just happening at the wrong time
I can't even do my essay in peace...

My tears fall in chorus
with the pouring rain
playing a melody
on my window pane.
My mind is lost
as I reminisce
of a trembling smile;
a gentle kiss.
My eyes are puffy
as I cry myself to sleep
my mind is shattered;
my body weak
I thought I heard him
whisper my name
but it was only my weeping
in soliloquy

I was wondering to myself at this late hour
How long could i walk with you in this journey
I know i can no longer lie to myself that i am fine
That everything is good and bliss
Coz i know i will be hurt eventually

I can't seem to go to bed...so i am up blogging...maybe just some random thoughts...

I am finding it so hard to let things go...each time i see a certain something, it just reminds me that maybe i shouldn't have agreed and went along...

I have been struggling with many things lately and it's just making me feel so down...i can see that things are breaking apart and somehow i dont know what to do about them...why did i not see the things ahead of me...now i think i am suffering the consequences...i could hardly even speak to anyone about it...even if i did, the decision still comes down to me...sigh...i just have to bury myself with work, work and loads more work...so maybe i wouldn't feel a thing...i can only just keep on praying and waiting upon God's will for me...