Deep within me,
This hurt still exist.
The scars stay within me

Wondering to myself how can i ever get myself out of this misery
Will i ever heal,
Or will i have to live with this pain forever.

I shut the doors behind me
And cry myself to sleep each night
Why must i be that chosen one to go through this

I wish for my past to return
That once happy and cheerful girl i used to be
But now it is gone

I just want to sleep forever.

Dumpling Day...

Me and the girls at G's place...

Me and G, the circus clown!!! haha...

Yay!!! My exams are finally over...after two long ardous weeks of burning the midnight oil...i can finally breathe and do what i really wanna do...time to get wild and party...i wanna club...gonna party real hard when i am back home...yes and also wanna meet up with all my closest friends...i miss everyone man...

My soul aches,
My heart breaks.
A tear in my eye,
I'll forever cry.

I wish my pain away,
I wish it away today.
Why does it hurt so bad
In this quiet lonely night...

Argh!!! Early in the morning and got scolded by dad...what a bad day man...But i am still so stubborn as ever...i am still going to do things My Way...

the faster we're falling, we're stopping & stalling, we're runnin' in circles again

Half way through my exams...feeling more relaxed right now as my main papers are over...BUT i fear for my exams to be over coz that loneliness will come haunting back at me once more...i will start focusing on the wrong things...and start having regrets...well, i think it is time to get myself sorted...need to really sit down and think things through..

I wanna raise my hands up high...to feel the love around me...

Taking a wee break off my studies...and decided to blog...yeah...so much thoughts rushed through my mind as i walked down University Avenue just now...I was asking myself why are there always people who will let you down? Is it becoz i have too high expectations on them...that's why i decided to isolate myself from people...i am loving the solitude that i have...maybe that will save me from being hurt or upset by people once more...i am beginning to miss those concord days...life is so different now in uni...with so many distractions and things that bring me down...i am trying hard to cope with everything...praying and trusting in God that he will raise me up...that i could achieve those high goals i set for myself...i wanna excel in my studies and be a high flyer in my career...and not forgetting my dreams to be a socialite tai tai...

I hate it when people think i am reliant on them...and that i can't live without them...I WILL PROVE THEM WRONG...and i meant it...i will make sure i prove myself to be someone...someone capable of doing everything herself and don't need you and you and you...ARGH!!!

I am officially PISSED OFF...nothing is getting into my head...just me breaking down in tears once more...I GIVE UP!!! No more studying for the night...i shall head home and SLEEP...that goes my day man...can't finish the nervous system again...that means i got 7 days to cramp the remaining of my revision before my papers...with the head and neck anatomy not touched yet...plus tooth morphology and dental pathology and the clinical work...how can that happen i dont know...if only there are miracles...or else that will be the end of me!!!

Okay i am using my blog to vent my anger...so people who read it please don't be offended!!!

ARGH!!! I am getting so pissed off with myself...I can't seem to focus on my studies tonight...I hate myself!!! nothing seems to be getting into my head despite me reading the passage time and time again...why am i so useless...why do i get distracted so easily...i think i'm gonna be so dead soon!!!!

I'm feeling worlds apart...torn in between things...my feelings are overwhelming...i dont know how i should react to things...putting on a brave front...with tears welling up in my eyes...hoping not to let my sadness show...trying hard to joke around and make people laugh...lord, please take away my heartache and help me to focus on my studies...lead me please oh lord, give me the strength to hang in there...am i thinking too much? i don't know really...am i being too sensitive once more? maybe i am feeling this way right now coz of the culture differences between us...well lord, i can only surrender myself to you...

I miss those IJ days... i wanna wear back my uniform...

An updated of a picture of me and G... bleah!!!