i am trying hard to read up on my bio...somehow i just don't seem to be able to focus...tears are like welling up in my eyes again...why is there no one who is able to understand me...why do i just have to cry in my lonely heart...too many things are on my mind...i am at sixes and sevens with love...just reflecting on what had happened through the past years...perhaps now i am just too weak to stand up anymore...why is this happening to me...maybe i should turn crooked...