didn't really have a happy time this christmas...something is on my mind since this morning...and i am feeling very terrible now...went down to orchard to do some shopping this afternoon. later met up with aunt for dinner at the thai restaurant in taka. felt really uncomfortable today...seem to be getting weird stares from people...oh my, sometimes i just feel like digging out their eyes. bought a lovely top from tommy hilfiger. i think i am getting more and more materialistic each day. waiting for mommy to come back from the paris trip with my lv bags...so sad, spending christmas night on my own. perhaps i should use this time to sort all my thoughts out...and work out a study plan too...i have did something really sinful. how can i forgive myself...