i was crying uncontrollably just now when i was at east coast park...crying by the beach alone...why is there no one who could really understands me...sometimes i just feel like a fool...is there such thing as true friends will be there to share your ups and downs together...so why i don't see anyone...i hate my mom...she always just says negative things to me...makes me feel so low and down...my eyes are swollen now...how can i go for my trip tomorrow...i really dont know...