why does this loneliness and fear haunts me constantly...the feeling of guilt and hurt...what have i done to deserve all these...i just wanna see my grandma one last time...i pray that god can preserve her so that i can see her a last time before she leave this world...how i wished i had spent more time with her during my summer hols instead of hanging out with my friends...life is simply just so fragile...you will never know when your love ones are gonna leave you...so many things have happened in my life lately...i just wanna break down and cry...